Join Gina, a new Derma Health Institute client, all this month on her journey through the HCG Ultimate Fat Burning Diet. Learn about her exeriences in her detailed journal on the ups and downs of this extraordinary diet.
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Morning Weigh In: Down 1.4 lbs.
Okay, it’s official…I want my food back!
I can’t do this! I’m craving my daily cheese and crackers and I want a large coke from McDonalds…now! Oh yea, and could you throw in a blueberry muffin?
This morning, after I…yep…peed AGAIN, I weighed myself and injected the HCG. I’ve lost another 1.4 pounds – hooray for me!! Although I am genuinely excited about this weight loss, I have to tell you, I am seriously craving some very specific things. My body is so used to having breakfast with my daughter every morning and of course, my beloved cheese and crackers in the mid-morning, I think I’m going into shock! It’s true when they say your body craves what you give it.
This day was not good. I found myself thinking about food all day. I managed to fight my way through lunch: 3 oz of lean steak, one breadstick, an apple and half of my cucumbers (I’ll save the other half for later afternoon). By the way, if veggies are as difficult to get down for you as they are for me, you can marinate the cucumbers in some apple cider vinegar. It’s not a blueberry muffin, but you do what you have to! Don’t forget to keep suckin’ down the water! (I think I’m going to float away)
My irritability level is at it’s peak (can you tell?) It’s not necessarily hunger, but the cravings are ridiculous! I’ve got to keep pushing through this. It was great to see that weight loss this morning, but it seems like everywhere I look, there’s something I’d love to be eating at that moment. I noticed every advertisement for every restaurant today. I salivated when I passed by the fast food joints on every corner. And even packing my daughter’s lunch…oh, what I’d do for a PBJ! (and I don’t even like those!) I think it might be a good idea for the rest of the world if I stay off the road today.
Dinner came and I noticed today, for the first time, that while I’m taking care to really focus on my portioned meals, I do, in fact, have the responsibility of cooking for the rest of my family. I managed to get through the preparation but when we actually sat down to eat together, I realized I was having a hard time. Their meal: rice, grilled tuna, roasted corn and biscuits. I took time with my own meal (3 oz. of grilled beef, tomatoes and a breadstick) and did my best to visit and enjoy the family.
I finished early and excused myself from the table. I went into the bedroom and sat on the bed and began to cry. At this moment I realized how addictive food has become for me. I felt as though I could have caused bodily harm to someone unless I was able to get my hands on a biscuit! As I write this, I realize how silly it sounds to be captive to such a basic necessity. I began to understand that my body had fallen victim to this pleasure and when removed, I became short tempered and emotional. It was time to re-focus on the goal. I’m going to have to figure out a way to manage my emotions and not take any of my frustrations out on the people around me. This will be difficult, but doable. I can leave a room for a moment, get myself together, and return. I know I can get through these changes; I just need to keep reminding myself that I want this weight loss more than I want a blueberry muffin.
I can do this.
So here we go, into the evening; an orange, some more mineral water and sleep. I’ll wake tomorrow with a better attitude. I’ll wake tomorrow knowing I can get through this.
- Gina
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